Author: astherainandsnow

“After his return from the defeat of Chedorlaomer and the kings who were with him, the king of Sodom went out to meet him at the Valley of Shaveh (that is, the King’s Valley). And Melchizedek king of Salem brought out bread and wine. (He was priest of God Most High.)  And he blessed him and said, ‘Blessed be Abram by God Most High, Possessor of heaven and earth; and blessed be God Most High, who has delivered your enemies into your hand!’ And Abram gave him a tenth of everything.  And the king of Sodom said to Abram, ‘Give me the persons, but take the goods for yourself.’ But Abram said to the king of Sodom, ‘I have lifted my hand to the Lord, God Most High, Possessor of heaven and earth, that I would not take a thread or a sandal strap or anything that is yours, lest you should say, “I have made Abram rich.”’” Genesis 14:17-23

During a battle between five kings and four where Lot was captured along with the people of Sodom, Abram took his trained army of 318 in a passioned rescue of his nephew. He returned, Lot, women, children, and possessions in tow, and was met by two kings. One, the mysterious King of Salem and Priest of Most High God, gave him both blessing and refreshment, to which Abram responded with generous offering of one tenth (the first tithe). The King of Sodom, whose pride, people, and very position he had restored, offered him the goods he’d retrieved, and Abram wanted nothing of his “reward.” What strikes me is that after such a magnificent military victory, Abram’s joy and reward was to give, to honor and offer sacrifice of gratitude, not to receive. He deflected all glory, owning that only God, Possessor of heaven and earth, could have delivered them and made them rich.

What is my practice, my impulse, when playing a part in any victory or achievement? When I say no to temptation, when I overcome fear for a task or a new relationship, when after many failures I actually hold my tongue and bless instead of curse, when I realize my tendency to complain is softening into a practice of thanking, do I take credit? Is there a hint of smugness that I knew I could solve it, I have arrived, a feeling of superiority over another who is weaker in a certain area? May it never be! Every victory is a gift of grace, every battle won by the Spirit’s hand. All praise goes to Him.

Abraham did what he had to do; he had no thought for himself, no swagger for position or recognition. His hands were lifted to the Possessor of heaven and earth, his life owned by Him; all honor was His.

God Most High, my Priest and King, may I not only recognize but acknowledge that all comes from You, every victory is Yours, won by Your righteous right hand.

“They brought the donkey and the colt and put on them their cloaks, and he sat on them. Most of the crowd spread their cloaks on the road, and others cut branches from the trees and spread them on the road. And the crowds that went before him and that followed him were shouting, ‘Hosanna to the Son of David! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! Hosanna in the highest!’ And when he entered Jerusalem, the whole city was stirred up, saying, ‘Who is this?’ And the crowds said, ‘This is the prophet Jesus, from Nazareth of Galilee.’ And Jesus entered the temple and drove out all who sold and bought in the temple, and he overturned the tables of the money-changers and the seats of those who sold pigeons. He said to them, ‘It is written, “My house shall be called a house of prayer,” but you make it a den of robbers.’”

“And the blind and the lame came to him in the temple, and he healed them. But when the chief priests and the scribes saw the wonderful things that he did, and the children crying out in the temple, ‘Hosanna to the Son of David!’ they were indignant, and they said to him, ‘Do you hear what these are saying?’ And Jesus said to them, ‘Yes; have you never read,“Out of the mouth of infants and nursing babies you have prepared praise”?’ …Jesus said to them, ‘Have you never read in the Scriptures: “The stone that the builders rejected has become the cornerstone; this was the Lord’s doing, and it is marvelous in our eyes”?'” Matthew 21:7-16,42

This passage displays the inverted thinking of man. Shouted hosannas to Jesus, the One they called a prophet, riding into Jerusalem on a donkey, the royal transport of the time,  voiced the crowd’s anticipation that He was deigned to become their earthly king. Jesus then, in righteous anger, threw over the tables of the dishonest traders in the temple, upending their practiced toleration of taking financial advantage of worshipers. The religious leaders, rather than marveling in gratitude at His merciful, wondrous miracles of healing, are indignant and critical, disturbed because their authority had been threatened. It is Jesus Who points out that the purest praise, the clearest understanding of Who He is, comes from the more innocent, unencumbered, less complicated minds of infants and children.

He overturns our thinking, too, if we allow Him. We get bent on certain thought-patterns and ride mental paths that travel in a lower, parallel universe from His lofty ways. We get intrigued with and beguiled by lesser, earthly, temporal things, emotions, desires, vantage points, and fail to ascend to His eternal and holy one. We dress ourselves in pride, touchiness, wearing badges of rights and identities and power that are dictated by this world and increasingly restrictive and difficult to discard. We end up rejecting what He has laid as our very foundation of truth and freedom, helpless to change apart from His mercy and renewal.

Lord, cleanse me. Invert my whole thought-process and any hint of perspective that is opposed to Yours, that I might whole-heartedly, with all my soul and might, bless You in the highest.

“Jesus said to his disciples, ‘You know that after two days the Passover is coming, and the Son of Man will be delivered up to be crucified…’ And the disciples did as Jesus had directed them, and they prepared the Passover… Now as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and after blessing it broke it and gave it to the disciples, and said, ‘Take, eat; this is my body.’ And he took a cup, and when he had given thanks he gave it to them, saying, ‘Drink of it, all of you, for this is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins.'” Matthew 26:1-2,19,26-28

In recent days, my heart is breaking as I have observed much brokenness in lives– cracked and ruptured marriages and fall-out with children; depression and feelings of worthlessness; mental instability that clouds perception, escalates anxiety, and wreaks irreparable harm in relationships; addictions that have shattered careers and trust; death. God, knowing my heart, opened to me this beautiful and familiar passage of the hours preceding Calvary. Jesus, the Whole and Perfect Son of God, broke bread, symbolizing His body, gave thanks, and distributed it to His beloved disciples. He knew that He would soon be put to death on the cross to save them from sin, to redeem them from all the brokenness they and mankind for all ages suffered and will suffer. “Take, eat, this is My body, broken for you.” And for me. Broken bread, a broken body, for broken lives.

“The bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world. I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.” John 6:33,35

Jesus went to the cross and was crucified, and buried, vanquishing sin and death, all that is ‘excruciating’ (‘out of the cross’) in our experience. He was broken not only for sin itself, the tainting of Eden, but for all its attending grief, poverty, sickness, longing, separation, antagonism, struggle with the flesh, innocent victims- the weeds in, and banishment from, Eden. Then He was raised from the dead victorious, to open for us in our resurrected Savior His powerful and personal presence with us always in the Holy Spirit, and certain hope for an eternal future with no pain, illness, tears, brokenness. “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore.” Hallelujah! (John 14:16-17; Revelation 21:4)

Great Redeemer, You know the burden I carry today, yet You bore this weight and more on the cross. Every time my heart is shattered, every time I partake of the broken bread and cup, remind me of Your inextinguishable love for broken man, of Your triumph, and of Your present and coming glory through it all.

“On the twenty-fourth day of this month the Israelites stood and confessed their sins, and they read from the Book of the Law of the Lord their God for a quarter of the day; for another quarter of it they made confession and worshiped the Lord their God. Then the Levites said, ‘Stand up and bless the Lord your God from everlasting to everlasting. Blessed be your glorious name, which is exalted above all blessing and praise. You are the Lord, you alone. You have made heaven, the heaven of heavens, with all their host, the earth and all that is on it, the seas and all that is in them; and you preserve all of them; and the host of heaven worships you. You chose Abram… You found his heart faithful before you, and made with him the covenant to give to his offspring the land. And you have kept your promise, for you are righteous. You saw the affliction of our fathers in Egypt and heard their cry at the Red Sea, and performed signs and wonders… You divided the sea before them, so that they went through the midst of the sea on dry land… By a pillar of cloud you led them in the day, and by a pillar of fire in the night to light for them the way in which they should go. You came down on Mount Sinai and gave them right rules and true laws. You gave them bread from heaven for their hunger and brought water for them out of the rock for their thirst, and you told them to go in to possess the land. 

“But they refused to obey, and were not mindful of the wonders that you performed among them. But you are a God ready to forgive, gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and did not forsake them. You sustained them in the wilderness, and they lacked nothing. You gave them kingdoms and peoples and allotted to them every corner… You multiplied their children as the stars of heaven, and you brought them into the land.” Nehemiah 9:1-3,5-13,15,17,19,21-23

To begin the day with honor to the Lord, in confession and worship and reading His word, is to be mindful of His wonders, permeated with His holy character and enthralled by, and thankful for, all He has done. In turn, He directs our minds, keeps our necks from stiffening, our hearts from yielding to foreign loves. He sustains.

God was always faithful, though His people waffled and traded loyalties again and again. If I find myself presumptuous and stubborn, fisting my way through the day according to my plans and rules, or doubtful and inconsistent, a wave of the sea driven and tossed by every wind that blows, I have failed to stay mindful of God’s wonders. I must, like Nehemiah’s Israel, be deliberate to set a time, stand (get in position), and recall Who He is, recount His hand through my history, and praise Him. (James 1:6; Psalm 105:5)

Magnificent Lord, remind me of Your works through my moments and hours. Imprint Your grace and glory inside me, and out, that my life proclaim Your wonders. (Psalm 111:4)

“And Abraham went early in the morning to the place where he had stood before the Lord. And he looked down toward Sodom and Gomorrah and toward all the land of the valley, and he looked and, behold, the smoke of the land went up like the smoke of a furnace. So it was that, when God destroyed the cities of the valley, God remembered Abraham and sent Lot out of the midst of the overthrow when he overthrew the cities in which Lot had lived.” Genesis 19:27-29

Abraham had pled for his nephew Lot upon God’s divulging that He would bring judgment on his wicked city. After they parted, God sent angels to destroy Sodom because the outcry against its people had become great, and they rescued a reluctant but ultimately willing Lot and his two daughters. (His wife hesitated and turned back, and was lost.) Abraham knew only of God’s promise to withhold destruction if there be five righteous, and went, early in the morning, perhaps after a sleepless night, to his special place of communion with God that overlooked the valley, and watched. Adjusting his eyes, he saw smoke. I imagine his loudly-beating heart hushed, heavy, sad and sobered in realizing that if Lot and his wife, his two daughters and even one of their fiances had been faithful to God, this would not be happening. (Genesis 18:32-33; 19:13)

“So it was that God remembered Abraham.” What beautiful words! They resound in Scripture with Noah, Rachel, Joseph, Hannah too. He remembers! When man forgets or is forgotten, God remembers! He cares, He is present; He does not neglect, He does not put on hold. He knows and comprehends and treasures, and therefore constantly remembers our sorrows, our longings, our striving, our hardships, our heartaches. And He remembers all His promises to us, and will bring them to pass by His power, in His way and time. (Genesis 8:1; 30:22; 40:23; Exodus 1:8; 2:24; 1 Samuel 1:19)

O soul, are you weary with yearning, waiting, clinging to thin hope? God remembers you! Are you lonely, afraid, regretful, sad? God remembers you! Are you mistreated, in exile from loved ones, misunderstood, abandoned, directionless? God remembers you!

“How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
is laid for your faith in His excellent Word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said,
To you, who for refuge, to Jesus have fled?”  ~ George Keith (1787)

Father, thank You for remembering me. Keep me remembering You, in all Your faithfulness, might, love, and glory, and trusting You always. You are good, and do good; all Your ways are good. (Psalm 119:68)

“When he had finished talking with him, God went up from Abraham.” “And the Lord went his way, when he had finished speaking to Abraham, and Abraham returned to his place.” Genesis 17:22;18:33

I love these verses, and find them to move my heart every the I read them. In chapter 17, God has given a specific promise to 99-year old Abraham that marvel of marvels, after a 13-year silence since His last recorded dealings with him, his barren wife would bear a child in the next year. Abraham laughs, questions, and God reminds him of His covenant,  and leaves. In chapter 18, the LORD has appeared again, and Abraham pleads for His mercy and sparing of his nephew Lot when He announces His impending judgment on Sodom. They go back and forth as Abraham intercedes, God patient with every request; then after the ‘but once again’ request and a sure promise to spare the city if five righteous are found there, the LORD departs. Both times, it is God Who finishes the conversation with a promise, and then leaves.

How often am I the one to finish with God, hurried off by my urgent agenda, my restlessness, my next-thing appointment or want-to? And in doing so, on what am I missing out? If I abort prayer before God is finished, what promises, reassurance, loving reminders, peace, am I leaving behind? Do I find myself setting out on my day still unsettled, confused, uncertain for direction, irritated or anxious or hopeless? Might the Lord have been waiting to dispense His fresh grace, His new perspective, His supernatural insight and provision until I took a breath from my chattering and lists and telling Him what I think “we” should do? What keeps me from managing my time to make prayer a priority? Why am I not willing to linger until He has had the last word and finished with me? Is my compulsion more important than His clarity? O, what treasures we never appropriate when we scurry away from the One Who confides in us! (John 15:15)

My God, You delight to hear our prayers and answer them; You reveal secrets to Your own. Please help me do what it takes to guard my time, and teach me patience in prayer, to desire and be willing to wait until You have finished with me. (Psalm 4:1; 6:9; Amos 3:7)

“All the people gathered into the square before the Water Gate. And they told Ezra the scribe to bring the Book of the Law. And he read from it facing the square from early morning until midday. And the ears of all the people were attentive. And Ezra the scribe stood on a wooden platform that they had made for the purpose. [He] opened the book in the sight of all the people, for he was above all the people, and as he opened it all the people stood. And Ezra blessed the Lord, the great God, and all the people answered, ‘Amen, Amen,’ lifting up their hands. And they bowed their heads and worshiped the Lord with their faces to the ground. [The Levites] read from the book clearly, and they gave the sense, so that the people understood the reading. And Nehemiah the governor, and Ezra the priest and scribe, and the Levites who taught the people said to all the people, ‘This day is holy to the Lord your God; do not mourn or weep.’ For all the people wept as they heard the words of the Law. Then he said to them, ‘Go your way. Eat the fat and drink sweet wine and send portions to anyone who has nothing ready, for this day is holy to our Lord. And do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.’ And all the people went their way to eat and drink and to send portions and to make great rejoicing, because they had understood the words that were declared to them.” Ezra 8:1,3-6,8-10,12

There is something about the eagerness of the people to hear and understand God’s word that is at once sobering, and inspiring. They sought it, took time to prepare for it, and stood for hours with full attention, allowing it to have its way in their hearts and minds, driving them to worship and repentance and obedience. This was no quick ‘devo,’ no superficial breezing through a verse or two; it was a true absorption of God’s holy word, an ingesting over time, with understanding, what it revealed of God, His rules for man, His ways of purity and mercy. The same word that brought conviction brought assurance of God’s great redeeming love, and joy abounded.

Does God’s word have such a high and prominent place in my days? Is it the object of an impatient nod, or is it my priority for sustenance and wisdom? Do I let its mere words only skim the surface of my mind, or do I invite the truths to sink into my soul and effect change, elicit praise, thanksgiving, a longing for more? In what ways has the word increased my love and mercy to others, broadened my worldview, diminished my prejudices, exposed and abased my sense of superiority, transformed my irritability into graciousness and long-suffering?

Lord, you delight in truth in the inward being, and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart. Soak me deeply in Your word. Wash me with it, sanctify me. Let the bones that you have broken rejoice; let me sing with joy and gladness all my days. (Psalm 51:6-8)

“He said to them, ‘But who do you say that I am?’ Simon Peter replied, ‘You are the Christ, the Son of the living God…’ From that time Jesus began to show his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things from the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and on the third day be raised. Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him, saying, ‘Far be it from you, Lord! This shall never happen to you.’ But he turned and said to Peter, ‘Get behind me, Satan! You are a hindrance to me. For you are not setting your mind on the things of God, but on the things of man…’ And after six days Jesus took with him Peter and James and John, and led them up a high mountain by themselves. And he was transfigured before them, and his face shone like the sun, and his clothes became white as light. And there appeared to them Moses and Elijah, talking with him. And Peter said to Jesus, ‘Lord, it is good that we are here. If you wish, I will make three tents here, one for you and one for Moses and one for Elijah.’ He was still speaking when… a voice from the cloud said, ‘This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him.’” Matthew 16:15-16,21-23;17:1-5

Just because we know Jesus doesn’t mean we will always live as if He is our Lord. Many relate to Peter because of his out-there vivacity, his earnestness, his oft-misguided impulsiveness, his passion. His heart is right but his impetuous action hinders his learning. What I see in these passages is a man who sincerely acknowledges Jesus as the Messiah, but has limited understanding and appropriation of all that means; it will do him good to be still and really know Jesus, that He is the one exalted, not us. (Psalm 46:10)

I watched the sunrise this morning, the clouds a fanfare of grey, then pink-red, then blazing orange, then subdued gold as that celestial ball climbed toward the horizon. Within moments, the play of light and cold air changed the same cloud formation, much as the light of God’s truth along with life circumstances change us, albeit no so quickly for us. What is true- that the light is always there and the course of our planet is sustained by its Creator- does not change; but we change as we are exposed to more and more light, as we learn to think the things of God and grow through choices and failures and victories in our days, over time. Life is dynamic when lived with Jesus. (Hebrews 1:3)

How vibrant is my spiritual walk? Have I stagnated in routine, or complacency, glutted with things and activities that have no eternal bearing? Or do I seek the Light afresh each day, taking in and applying all I can learn, thinking about and feasting on what is true, noble, right, excellent? The more light absorbed, the greater glory reflected. (Philippians 4:8)

Lord, may Your light flood every recess of my mind, my heart, my will. Satiate me with Your word, deepen my understanding, stretch my faith. Change me to be more like You, from day to day and glory to glory. (2 Corinthians 3:18)

“Now when Sanballat heard that we were building the wall, he was angry and greatly enraged, and he jeered at the Jews. And he said, ‘What are these feeble Jews doing? Will they restore it for themselves? Will they finish up in a day? Will they revive the stones out of the heaps of rubbish, and burned ones at that?’ Tobiah the Ammonite was beside him, and he said, ‘Yes, what they are building—if a fox goes up on it he will break down their stone wall!’ Hear, O our God, for we are despised… So we built the wall… But when Sanballat and Tobiah and the Arabs and the Ammonites and the Ashdodites heard that the repairing of the walls of Jerusalem was going forward, they were very angry. And they all plotted together to come and fight against Jerusalem and to cause confusion in it. And we prayed to our God and set a guard as a protection against them day and night.

In Judah it was said, ‘The strength of those who bear the burdens is failing. There is too much rubble. By ourselves we will not be able to rebuild the wall.’ And our enemies said, ‘They will not know or see till we come among them and kill them and stop the work.’ At that time the Jews came from all directions and said to us ten times, ‘You must return to us.’ And I said to the nobles and officials and the rest of the people, ‘Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your [families], and your homes.’ We all returned to the wall, each to his work…

“Now when Sanballat and Tobiah and Geshem and the rest of our enemies heard that I had built the wall and that there was no breach left in it, [they] sent to me, saying, ‘Come and let us meet together in the plain of Ono.’ But they intended to do me harm. And I sent messengers to them, saying, ‘I am doing a great work and I cannot come down.’ And they sent to me four times in this way, and I answered them in the same manner. They all wanted to frighten us, thinking, ‘Their hands will drop from the work, and it will not be done.’ But now, O God, strengthen my hands.” Nehemiah 4:1-4,6,7-12,14-15; 6:1-4,9

Anger, rage, taunting, mocking, whining, threatening, distracting… opposition from without and within pelted Nehemiah from the start of his rebuilding Jerusalem’s wall, and he never got ruffled, never veered off-course. He said “oh, no” to Ono and every other distraction and temptation. He stayed focused on the work God had given him to do, and encouraged his co-laborers that God was awesome and their cause worthwhile. He responded when appropriate, like renouncing false accusations, and he knew when to keep quiet and pray; and pray he did. (Nehemiah 6:5-8)

When the enemy is relentless in my life, do I fluster, get chafed and defensive, fret in fear, play victim, deviate, give up? Or do I keep to task, emboldened with the truth that “He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.” Oh, to be a Nehemiah! (1 Thessalonians 5:24)

Father, when I face an onslaught of opposition, may I walk before You and be blameless, stay beside You to be strengthened, and follow You as my Shield and Guide, that all perceive that my resistance has been accomplished with the help of You my God. (Genesis 17:1; Nehemiah 6:16)

“Moreover, from the time that I was appointed to be their governor in the land of Judah, from the twentieth year to the thirty-second year of Artaxerxes the king, twelve years, neither I nor my brothers ate the food allowance of the governor. The former governors who were before me laid heavy burdens on the people and took from them for their daily ration forty shekels of silver. Even their servants lorded it over the people. But I did not do so, because of the fear of God. I also persevered in the work on this wall, and we acquired no land, and all my servants were gathered there for the work. Moreover, there were at my table 150 men, Jews and officials, besides those who came to us from the nations that were around us. Now what was prepared at my expense for each day was one ox and six choice sheep and birds, and every ten days all kinds of wine in abundance. Yet for all this I did not demand the food allowance of the governor, because the service was too heavy on this people. Remember for my good, O my God, all that I have done for this people.” Nehemiah 5:14-19

All leaders have certain privileges, and many who appreciate their responsibilities would not refute their right to exercise or enjoy them. But Nehemiah refused what he could have accessed. After correcting the practice of the nobles’ and officials’ exacting usury from their Jewish brothers, urging them to walk in the fear of God and to guard His reputation before foreigners, he himself kept on as an exemplary servant-leader. He chose not to dine luxuriously nor impose the tax burden on his people that would require, as had his predecessors. He would not lord it over the people, as even the servants of previous governors had done. He got dirty, working alongside his people, and welcomed them to his table, sharing delicious but not over-the-top bounty with everyone. The more we read of Nehemiah, we see this is simply who he is: a God-centered official whose aim it is to honor Him, and to serve those entrusted to him as he leads them to do the next right thing. God appointed, so God would lead and provide, and it was up to Him to protect and reward. (Nehemiah 5:7-9)

When I am in a position of leading others, or have access to privilege and abundance, are my decisions self-serving, fueled by narrow self-consciousness or a pride in my rights, or by humble fear of the God Who placed me there, and large love for those for whom I am responsible? How willing am I to deny myself pleasures or ease that could be mine, for the sake of others and a greater cause? Whether some criticize, or question, or need the money for daily bread that I would have spent on my fancy, if my heart is fixed on the Lord of all, I will consider in every situation what He would have me do. Jesus, equal with God and through Whom all was made, came not to be served but to serve, and He calls me to do the same. (Mark 10:45; John 1:1-3; Philippians 2:5-7)

Father, You have assigned me my portion and my cup, and it overflows. May I always set You before me, await Your counsel, and so live and lead that all are drawn to share in Your bounty. (Psalm 16:5,7-8)